Dreamer

Am I a dreamer for wanting romance in my life? I know what I see in movies is not realistic, but some of it can be, no? I mean, all it takes is some effort. Isn't it worth it to make that special someone feel good just by doing a little something that you know will make them gush?

It can be as simple as telling them what you really feel. No holding back to save face...if you feel it, just say it!

Sometimes I feel uncertain...so much of the unknown.

Sun Run 2007

What was I thinking? Sun Run...me? ahahahahaha. Yep, that's what I signed up for this year. I ho & hummed for a long time, but in the end agreed to do the Sun Run this time. Train for the 10k run? I had every intention but...well, it just didn't happen. heh heh. Before I realized, it was already the week of the big run! Eeks! All I managed to do was 20 minutes on the treadmill a few days before the Sun Run on April 15!

I intended to walk the whole thing but part way through I felt the adrenaline rush. I CAN DO IT! And so, I started jogging. Wow, amazingly it was pretty fun. With my iPod blaring and the crowd around me I felt great! Between some fast strolling and slow jogging I thought I did pretty good. I didn't need an ambulance to take me back!

Oh, but once the adrenaline rush was over...that's when the pain trickled in. Slowly but surely my legs felt sore. My legs are still sore each time I climb the stairs or even walk!

I guess I asked for it!

Can't fight it

As much as I'd hate to admit this, I'm moody! I try to keep a 'happy-go-lucky' attitude most of the time, but can't hold it up all the time. The mind is powerful, I try to tell myself to stay optimistic but sometimes hormones take over! Friggin, I'm feeling happy one moment and then the next I'm almost in tears. You poor souls who have to deal with me when this happens...good luck!

And yes, right now I'm feeling moody & need attention.

Can't fight it

As much as I'd hate to admit this, I'm moody! I try to keep a 'happy-go-lucky' attitude most of the time, but can't hold it up all the time. The mind is powerful, I try to tell myself to stay optimistic but sometimes hormones take over! Friggin, I'm feeling happy one moment and then the next I'm almost in tears. You poor souls who have to deal with me when this happens...good luck!

And yes, right now I'm feeling moody & need attention.

A sure sign of too much fun

I had so much fun celebrating my birthday this year. I've found the foul-proof method now...kekeke, it involves good friends (old & new), good food, loud music, dancing and of course some alki.

I was a little uncertain if all my friends would get along, but alcohol prooved itself useful once again! hee hee, everyone is so friendly when drunk! I love all my friends -- mmmuuuuahhh!!

But fun has it's price. I had so much fun I ended up losing my clutch, which included my cell, DL, CareCard & $200. Why me, why me?? Now to get replacements...crap! For the person who took off with it...KARMA!!!

No, I'm not mad

How many times have I said "No, I'm not mad" but was actually fuming inside? Too many to count! Why is it difficult to to admit that I'm mad? Even when asked, I generally reply with "No, I'm not mad".

Perhaps I just want to think that I'm a more forgiving person and that by not admitting to it; I would eventually forget about being mad? Or perhaps I feel that you should know better...why do I need to tell you?! Grrrr!

Eh, either way I'm twisted. Oh well. Gotta take me as I am...damaged and twisted!

That Kinda Girl

I don't want to be the needy girl...but does this make me that girl?

I need to be cherished.
I need to know that I am important.
I need to be reassured of where I stand from time to time...I can not be expected to 'just know'.
I am not ok with being ignored and pushed aside.
I am unique & special and need to be treated that way.
I will not be taken for granted.
I am afraid of getting hurt...but I will try to trust again.

I want to feel the sun on both sides; to love and be loved.